Reflection... Or is it??!

I haven't been writing for a long time.
Not because I didn't have time.
More like I rather do other things such as chatting with people, playing games, doing things I enjoy doing except for chasing after a better future.

It was the time of the semester where I had to take an exam which I obviously didn't spend much time studying for. (Yes I did the last minute thing which I told myself I shouldn't and still do.)
Since I have absolutely no idea how to do the exam, I spent the exam writing a reflection / goals which I did not review after the exam.

It became a piece of waste paper just lying around until now that I'm preparing for my next exam, I picked it up and decided that I should process them (Further procrastinating...)
So this is how it goes.
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30 July 2021 9.30AM

I’m in the middle of a paper I know nothing about.

I am feeling super tired and I keep dozing off.

The problem is that I had to continue with this examination as it is not a physical paper.

 

Should I continue with this course?

I think the short answer is YES but how can I fulfill the requirement to pass?

That’s an excellent question…

 

Anyway, this will be the 4th module I will be failing from year 1 syllabus

To prevent the same thing from happening again,

I think I legit had to cut down a lot of time playing maple, reading novels, etc.

20 minutes left till the end of paper 1.

I think I will take a short nap & continue during paper 2

My next exam paper, I think I should be prepared

 

Next semester goals

-          No missing of tutorials

-          Read up on the lectures in advance & make notes

-          Review work weekly

-          Set timetable for work, study and stick to it

-          Dedicate study hours weekly

Goals

-          Work out a weekly routine and stick to it

-          Start studying more

-          Spend time to clear the room

-          Routine for writing / Posting on Socials.

-          Find ways to make passive income

-          Learn programming on android (for calendar app)

-          Buns for photoshop

-          Find out regarding video editing software

-          Music theory & composing

-          Dance & work out

-          Learn how to draw

-          Reorganise phone

-          Work out finances

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It's 14 November 2021 now. I'm at the end of the "Next semester" But I have done absolutely nothing in the list. Exam is on 19 November 2021 and I am procrastinating like crazy.

I have 5 more days to sort this out. I really hope I get through this this time but I know it will be difficult.

I think I will be doing more reflection on myself after my exams.
There isn't anything that pushes me.

Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't have signed up for this.
I wasn't ready for it. 
But I wasn't sure if I should quit it.

Many things happened in the month of October which wasn't pleasant. 
I think I am still really affected by it.

My exams should be over by 25 November which leaves December a month for me to reflect on this year and set goals for the following year. 

Now the rest just sound like me blabbering so I'm just going to sign off. 

Maybe another reflection after my first paper.

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