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My dad passed away 2 years ago.  The day before my dad passed away,  My younger sister is at my house cause she will be starting work the following week and she will move in to stay with me. We were assembling the IKEA wardrobe we got for her and then she said she'll stay over. A thought came to my mind when she asked me; Since she's moving out to stay with us, she should go home and spend the remaining weekend with parents.  But then, since she already asked so I said OK without telling her my thoughts. Fast forward the next day, My dad collapse at home with my mum completely at a loss of what to do. Second sister went over since she stay the closest to parents. But she was too late.  I often wondered WHAT IF I just voiced out my thought at the time she proposed to stay over. What if I force her to go back home instead. Would she be able to save dad if she is at home? But there's really no what if. Even if there's an alternative dimension, I'm not in that dimension...

今年刚接触到的歌. 多谢Youtube Music 的介绍 2016发行的歌. 我今年年头才听到 听到后立马加入喜欢歌曲榜.  在公交上看着歌词重复播放. 然后就变成我每次都会听的一首歌 当我逐渐的被其他的歌曲慢慢带走后， 三个礼拜前, 谭松韵和王铮亮的演唱 霸占了我的抖音, 令我又重新在循环听这首歌. 好喜欢他们的处理方式 尤其是bridge的部分. 男生紧逼女生冷漠. 然后我也开始试着自己唱. (但是我唱的是原唱的版本) 这首歌一个人唱好难哦. 词很多旋律的步伐很快也要有呼吸的把控力 很多时候唱到最后一句会没有气唱完. 这首歌没有前奏, 直接就要进. 由于我是用KTV 唱 每次第一句完了我才反应到歌曲已经开始了. 但是我每次卡在第二句 ： "左顧右盼不自然的暗自喜歡 " 因为我左右需要时间判别 而顾不是一个常会出现在歌曲的字 又是繁体字, 每次令我愣在提字机前. 我在这首歌中也学到了一个之前我没接触到得字: "赧". 跟google 查了后才知道原来是念 nǎn. 若不是这首歌我应该不会接触到这个词汇. 我至今还在听这首歌(原唱版). 想着可能有一天用这首歌编制一段舞蹈. 但是歌的时长有一点长.所以应该会抽一段出来编. 而不是编完整首歌. 之前我只听过陈粒的易燃易爆炸 (也是我很爱的一首歌) 现在又爱上她的小半. 可能是时候去听她的其它歌曲了.

Omg Time fly past this month. I actually did much worse since I broke the momentum last month. I said I'll pick up but I didnt.  I feel like I need to cancel all my goals cause it's just seriously not happening. Too much to do, too little time.  Even when there is time, I spent it doing something else so.... lets recap and see how we gonna change it. And then also, I have not been tracking my goals like last time where I check in on it every day. so maybe I should start to check in on my goals every day from now.

Time past so fast!  Half of the month has passed and I regret to say that I haven't been sleeping before 1AM for weeks.  I had excuse of "its my birthday month last month" but now, it's just really because of the new event in MapleSEA. OK lets not blame it 100% there's also my procrastination problem. 

New Month but lets recap my goals and how I fare last month.