What if

My dad passed away 2 years ago. 

The day before my dad passed away, 
My younger sister is at my house cause she will be starting work the following week and she will move in to stay with me. We were assembling the IKEA wardrobe we got for her and then she said she'll stay over.

A thought came to my mind when she asked me;

Since she's moving out to stay with us, she should go home and spend the remaining weekend with parents. 

But then, since she already asked so I said OK without telling her my thoughts.

Fast forward the next day, My dad collapse at home with my mum completely at a loss of what to do.
Second sister went over since she stay the closest to parents.

But she was too late. 

I often wondered WHAT IF I just voiced out my thought at the time she proposed to stay over.
What if I force her to go back home instead.

Would she be able to save dad if she is at home?

But there's really no what if. Even if there's an alternative dimension, I'm not in that dimension.
Whatever that have already happened cannot be undone.

What this taught me is to always voice out my thoughts. 
If I have something in mind, voice out so that I wont feel so much regrets when something happen.

Time is really precious. We don't know when one will suddenly leave us. Many friends and families were shocked with my dad passing because he is healthy. (OK he doesnt do check up so we don't know)
But for what everyone knows, he's active, he's strong, he's not suffering from any illnesses).
So we have to make time to spend with our love ones.

I think for us, we don't have much regrets cause our family, we are quite close knitted and we see each other every week even though we don't stay together. But it really came as a shock to us because we did not know the time we had together is gone so soon. We had travel plans arranged. So many things in the talking about the future. 

Anyway, we are living well and I hope dad is in a better place now.