中毒太深

在一个月的时间内 我做了两件荒唐的事
即便是知道事情有多荒唐但又不想要改变
也想一直继续着这个荒唐的行为....

知情者说:
觉得我对其他人不公平
觉得我对自己更不公平
这种事是不健康的
觉得我很吃亏
觉得我很傻

虽然我也很认同TA的说法
但是我就是中毒太深
就是上瘾了 就是没办法控制自己
当机会来临时当然要好好保握
你们说是不是?

哎呀反正已经过去了
也没有办法改变任何事

看着办吧

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