而我听见下雨的声音

人都是口是心非
选择权已经在你手上了
但做出的选择与心里的选择是不一致的

Oh why oh why are you so fickle minded~
oh why oh why you are this way ?
因为不管事情的大小都有太多人事物需要考虑

心里想要/做的的事

不敢轻易的说出来
不敢去尝试
不敢轻易答应/ 做出选择

怕被人占便宜
怕别人不认同
怕别人的目光
怕会被收控制
怕尽力却失败
怕被当众拒绝
怕历史会重演
怕经历艰难
怕当众出丑
怕别人嘲笑
怕经验不足

还有很多很多
没办法全都写下

结果没有尝试就放弃了
选择对外说一些自己并不想要
但是社会/身边的人会认同的路

把自己弄到很累很累
明明原本只要开口就能够得到的事
变成后来无法得到的事

机会不等人啊
难得来的机会
要记得好好把握
别想太多那些有的没的

今天错过的机会心里觉得好可惜
心里有点不平衡
很伤心...天仿佛知道我会伤心
陪着我心里的世界一起下雨
。。。

其实雨已经下了一段时间
也是那段雨带来的机会
是我自己没好好把握。。。

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