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Time is a really precious thing. But the sad thing is not everyone cherish / make use of their time wisely. For me, I really don't have much motivation to work so I keep procrastinating at work. Then I realized I really need to complete my work so I got no choice but to stay back after work hours / use my weekends to try and complete them so that I will have less work during the weekdays. But still I get chased everyday by different Project managers T^T. Next week I really need to turn on my gears and stop all chat function to focus on work. Otherwise I will really get stuck with all my work. Already very behind schedule. Which means I will post less frequent until I managed to complete most of my work. But then again, I've tried many times to cut down on chatting but then I went back to chatting after I feel unmotivated. (and I frequently feel unmotivated?!) Gonna set a fixed chatting timing during work hours so at least can complete work plus also rest time...

There is so many urgent things I need to do! Some of the work wasn't urgent previously but have become urgent due to procrastination. Too unmotivated to carry on working all the time.  It is so hard to complete anything with my mind keep drifting here and there. I really need to work on being more focused and more time conscious.  It's really late right now and I still haven't started on my project which I need to hand up by Friday. The thing is, I haven't even completed 90% during the interim we had previously and my supervisor. Really need to work on it right now.  Should have paid someone to do the report and give me a presentation to present it. It's too late for me to pay someone to do it since I need to SUBMIT the report on FRIDAY! Kinda regret taking leave on Monday from work. Now so many other things become URGENT! Anyway, there will be a discussion regarding the tender tomorrow.  Haven't even finalized the price / planned how...

Me being such a lazy person, I really dislike having changes in my life. But I also understand that changes are unavoidable. There are changes that I must make to become a better person be it for my health, for work / for people around me.  The thing is that, if you want to be successful / to be able to have more time to do something, then you have to take the first step and make changes to your life in order to work towards your goal. This year, I've made one change which I did to my life and is currently still sticking with it. That change is to drink less can drinks. Well, I mean I still drink can drinks from time to time.... But not as much. The reason why I made the change is because I want to become slimmer without exercise. It's not that I'm very fat in real life but I just want to look better for myself.  and that I think that cutting down on can drinks is a workable way (1st, save money... 2nd, it's readily available... 3rd, it is health...

It's my first time eating the capsule type medication today I thought it would be hard to swallow since I can't really swallow Panadol fast enough and it always end up melted in my mouth. Was dam paranoid about trying to swallow it because of all the what ifs. End up I was worried for nothing THE CAPSULE IS WAY EASIER TO SWALLOW I don't even need as much water to wash them down No wonder my mum can eat so many pills at one go but I still don't dare to eat 2 capsules at one go. Gonna try tomorrow Kinda glad that I didn't back up and choose to open the capsule and swallow the powder instead

OMG GUYS ! It is finally Friday ! Today is such a short work day for me as I practically just went out for the whole afternoon.... Which means that I'll have a lot of catching up to do afterwards. Well, but the trip out is worthwhile la. Not really a waste of my time. Getto know new people and also got more ideas on how to do my work. Shared some ideas and comments I have and also get feedback on how work should be done... I think I did mention some sensitive stuff. Not sure how it will come and bite me afterwards but then I think it shouldn't be that bad right ? Is now in school cause my manager drop me off at school after the meeting. It's not really my first time being early to class but it isreally one of the rare times. Didn't know that I will have time to write a blog post while I am not at home otherwise I would have brought along my keyboard. I will be having an open book test later which I am not sure if I will be able to pass it or not. There is...

人生就是这样 只要有一步走错了，后面走的路往往都是 '错' 的路 所以才会有这句话 ; 一错再错 当然， 我们也不可能永远都在做错事 只是做错了一步后， 未来要走回正路比较困难 需要很多意志力去克服做错事的坏习惯 虽然所已经结束了可是心里还是不甘心 不管了.... 我就算死也要玩死TA 这个良心被狗吃的大坏蛋 不管怎么说也是TA 先开始的 可是说真的， 我觉得我也很难玩死TA 如果真要比的话 我已尽输TA很多回合了 要弄到TA不好意思 / 不自在 / 胡思乱想 应该很难 毕竟一个大坏蛋就是这样的 今天我好像有赢一局! 要忍住我想要找TA对质的冲动才不会有沦落为败者

今天第一次看中医... 第一次针灸 之前有点怕会痛 但是还好没有我想象中的痛. 我的中医帮我配了药. 原本有一点怕吃的. 怕会苦.  可是也不是很苦. 能接受 所以要乖乖吃完他. 今天之所以会看中医是单纯想要知道自己的身体有没有什么情况 结果发现身体有点虚. 需要补回来 要慢慢调养. 医生说我不能跑步哦!

Thank god it's Friday ! And I am not at work cause I still have school work to do. Project review is today and *I HAVEN'T DONE ANY SHIT TO MY REPORT!* But anyway, I have whole morning plus afternoon to do it since my review is at night (As long as I don't get distracted doing other things ?) But that is how you should spend your leave days! Doing what you like / things you always want to  人生就是这样. 有些东西早晚都会做的 只是不同的时间点会产生不一样的结局罢了 最近发生了一些事情让我一直胡思乱想 这件事我不懂也不太会用语言来描述 总而言之, 一开始不是我想要踏入的 然后被诱惑了. 虽然被诱惑可是还是不太想要踏入那件事情 可是后来一直被劝说, 最后我妥协了 虽然妥协了 但是还是觉得这种事情不能永久毕竟我们在补洞... 哪里有洞就往那里补 事后才发现补了没太大的用处. 回不到从前的时光也找不回当初的美好. 虽然我一开始就不看好这件事 可是事情的后果/结局 真的不是我所想象的 也不是我想要的. 可是一切已经太迟了 也好像没有挽救成功的机率 今天这件事情终于落下了据点.  知道该洒脱但是又做不到... 对于这件事我们也已经犯了很多次规 也许是因为之前没有把规矩讲的清楚一点  所以才会有现在的不甘愿 Now let's get back to English mode. I think Friday is such a good day to take leave. So much time to myself and most importantly, There will be a I love yoo update! bu...

Week started off happy. Good mood for everything :) I even start updating the corkboard they have at office. Starting with It's a beautiful Monday. But then as the days goes by, I start to feel more negativity. It's Thursday now and I don't know what to write anymore. Lazy to update anymore just like this diary. I guess thinking about what to write daily isn't really for me. Many things happened throughout the week. so many things to do and my mood suddenly dipped down. Took leave on friday to re-adjust my mood and also complete my project. Still have class on friday. Can't wait to go home this week. It's been a few weeks since I last went back. Gonna bring some clothings back ?? Sometime I feel very conflicted on whether I should return home or just stay over at my partner place cause my partner place is closer to work. but I'm just going to bring 1 set back so at least there is something I can wear when I am back at home. OH GOSH...