Drifting Apart

Hey! It's been a long time since I last posted.
It's the end of the year now and I feel like there are just so many things in life that is going on that I want to rant about. 

Adulting is hard and relationship is hard to maintain :'(

I really felt dam sad when I wasn't invited to a Christmas Party that I've been going for 3 years just because they really don't want my partner to be around. No mention about it not even last minute.

I mean I know it is happening but I'm not sure whether I should ask about it since they did not mention it to me.

Honestly, I'm very confused cause like I think they wont stop me if I asked about it but at the same time I feel sad that they didn't ask me. 

I was so upset that when I saw the post on Instagram, I DM-ed the host to asked her why I was not invited.
I later deleted the message (before she sees it) cause it's kinda pointless since it already happened and that I can guess the answer and it's probably not gonna make me feel better about it.

I guess the only consoling thing is that the host later told me that she did wanted to invite me even at last minute (Cause we always does things impromptu so inviting last minute is normal as well), she told others to text me about it as she was busy making dinner but they did not. But then again, this is happening for many years so like it's planned and I'm not invited also la so I'm quite upset about it.

I guess life is like that. People drift apart once they hit certain stages of life. 
Now I'm feeling sad again, tearing just thinking and writing about this episode.
Felt like I drifted apart from many people this year.

I mean I also met a lot of awesome people and is close with some of them but this feels like betrayal cause I've literally known them since childhood. 

Signing off with big sad teary face. 
:'(



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